Torian`Not Here. says:
..looks like I've become the no-good boyfriend, something I've never wanted to become. Dump me then
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
it's not that.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I was in the shower, by the way.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
no, I wasn't in Ro.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
maybe if you'd play every once and awhile? >>
Torian`Not Here. says:
Laptop gets picked up tomorrow. Is all of this angst against me because of RO?
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
No.
Torian`Not Here. says:
Then what? I feel as though I'm an annoyance to you these days.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
Iono
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I guess it's cuz
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
all these guys came into my life and you just clung harder to me than ever
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
and it make me feel cornered
Torian`Not Here. says:
Then why not let me cling? I'm your boyfriend and should have vip access to you but in the end, Andy and Billy get you more than I do
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
it's because
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I haven't talked to them in MONTHS.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
ever since niktout when down
Torian`Not Here. says:
Mmk.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I don't like being cornered.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
or feeling cornered.
Torian`Not Here. says:
But no-one forcibly cornered you. They're just friends, there isnt a triangle of love like last time where you were truly cornered
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
YOU cornered me
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
clingclingcling is all you've done the past week
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
and I love but damn
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you**
Torian`Not Here. says:
I rarely speak to you nowadays, less than usual if anything.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
well I dunno..
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
it just feels like
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
your suffocating me
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you're*
Torian`Not Here. says:
then I'll back off. I'm sorry.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
Stop.. >>
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
.. I'm being unfair
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
but I just
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
want some time to myself i guss
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
guess*
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
and it's like
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
whenever I get comfortable
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
the phone rings
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
or whenever I'm in ro and alt tab back
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you talked to me
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
then got kinda upset cuz I didn't reply
Torian`Not Here. says:
not rly. I know where you are because of your status and never get upset no matter how long it takes you
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
>>
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
aguing
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
and using logic
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
isn't gonna help.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
arguing**
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
in fact
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
it's only gonna fucking piss me off more.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I'm saying
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I wanted some time alone, and I know I said
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you could call
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
but it feels like you call all the time
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
and I know you're comps broke
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
but you call at the worst times
Torian`Not Here. says:
sorry for not being psychic.
Torian`Not Here. says:
but if you were in ro all day
Torian`Not Here. says:
wouldnt any time be the worst?
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
fine.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
be a smartass.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
that'll make me love you more than ever.
Torian`Not Here. says:
....I'm not getting guilted into being the ass here. And I barely feel the love you hold for me. You're saying Andy is crushing on you yet you spend more time with him, you got taken advantage of in a theatre and still let him be your friend, it's like you like keeping people that love you by your side.
Torian`Not Here. says:
Meh, guess this is just another period. I'll ask my mom how many bad periods are in relationships.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
dunno.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
maybe I just feel doubtful cuz
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you're not as strong or tough as I'd like
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
just
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
tell me to stop it
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
but in a whiny way i guess
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
when I need you to TELL me to stop it.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you let me walk all over you and
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
i hate it.
Torian`Not Here. says:
I recall being a controlling ass before, the only thing that got me was "we need to break up"
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
excuse
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you've NEVER been a hardass to me before.
Torian`Not Here. says:
why would you want me to be a hardass on you? I'm not some generic jock who controls his gf's life
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
well maybe I need to be controlled. >>
Torian`Not Here. says:
Well I cant magically turn into a controlling ass. Sorry
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
well I'm not happy atm. =/
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
either you cling too much but still let me do what I want
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
or you go emo on me..
Torian`Not Here. says:
actually
Torian`Not Here. says:
the next time you told me you kissed some dude or let him kiss you and did nothing, I was just gonna end it. I need you in my life. I love you to death and I care for you deeply, but I'm not very tolerant on people who cheat on others, even if it was my gf.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
Excuse?/
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I told you why
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
and then I called him
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
WHILE TALKING TO YOU ON MSN
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
and told him we're only to be friends
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
WAS THAT NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU
Torian`Not Here. says:
No it was, I'm just saying if you let it happen again.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
heh. >>
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
you know, I just might end it first.
Torian`Not Here. says:
Then do so, I'll just end up buying some run down piece of shit apartment and living out my days with a fisherman's belly and a shit warehouse job.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
ok, so is that sposed to make me feel guilty?
Torian`Not Here. says:
No, I'm just saying nothing would change, except there being no light at the end
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
lol
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
so even if I stayed with you it'd end that way
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
just with a haggard, ill tempered wife with gray hair and a dirty apron
Torian`Not Here. says:
No, meaning my current lifestyle is on repeat and eventually will just be one of not caring anymore
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
ok
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
so
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
if I stay with you
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
what'll it be like.
Torian`Not Here. says:
me working to get there, me finishing my course, getting the diploma and working my way up in a company that has U.S. ties, me asking the owner of said company to get me transferred to the U.S. side and earning my visa.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
ok?
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
then what.
Torian`Not Here. says:
then build up my lifestyle there, get a flat and a dog and earn up until you're finished, visiting florida frequently
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
heh
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
is that as far forward as you'll go?
Torian`Not Here. says:
....Whatever. I dont care if I regret this for the rest of my life. I dont care if I'm saying this out of emotional and physical exhaustion but we might aswell give up if you expect me to change, because I'm not going to be a controlling fuck.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
IT'S NOT THAT.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I jsut wanted to know
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
why you wouldn't go farther then just us finishing school
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
that's ALL
Torian`Not Here. says:
Because I'd rather make memories together than plan ahead
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
well I like to plan ahead.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I'm not spontaneous all the time.
Neige` Training My Chars, Bishes. <333 says:
I like knowing where the fuck I'm gonna go.
Torian`Not Here. says:
Likewise, but the path keeps changing.
Torian`Not Here. says:
It isnt wednesday and I dont want to let myself ruin us due to stress. I'm going bed. I wont be on tomorrow, no reason to be and you need/want space. Hopefully you find your answer