Brad says:
What?
Phaded says:
i cant work for you any more, sorry.
Brad says:
.....
Brad says:
1 1/2 years and you send a one line message over msn?
Phaded says:
are you expecting more?
Brad says:
I dont even know what to say
Brad says:
All I remember you saying is "I would never quit on you"
Brad says:
now you quit at the worst possible time ever
Brad says:
So yea I dont know what to say
Phaded says:
I regret saying that. Things have changed
Brad says:
why?
Phaded says:
why do i regret it?
Phaded says:
or why have things changed?
Brad says:
why have things changed
Phaded says:
well, its been a week, i've not got anything done, and i told you if it happen again im done
now, maybe its just me i don't know, i just have a real problem trying to stay focused and continue coding, but it doesn't work, and if im wasting your time, theres no reason for me ot even continue.
Brad says:
Yea I dont know what to say, I feel so deceived right now
Brad says:
I feel like u just stabbed me in the back
Brad says:
so yea not even mad, just really sad
Phaded says:
I don't know why you feel that way, and i know it was sudden specially right now when you need me most. I just don't know what else to do.
Brad says:
Why I feel that way?
Brad says:
We are so close to where I wanted to be for two years....so close
Brad says:
Then with no notice, no real reason
Brad says:
you quit over msn with a one word line...no real explanation besides feeling bad for yourself
Brad says:
which in my opinion is a poor excuse
Phaded says:
I don't want to hurt anybodys feelings, your a good friend and a good person, i just want to leave it at that.
Brad says:
and u dont understanbd why I feel that way
Brad says:
Man you arent gonna make it far....if thats what u do when things get hard
Brad says:
just quit?
Phaded says:
this is why i quit
Phaded says:
right there
Phaded says:
you belittle me so damn much, i can't take it.
Brad says:
oh so the truth comes out
Phaded says:
well yes, you just did it again.
Brad says:
ever think of this Bryan
Brad says:
Ever think that maybe im not blame
Brad says:
maybe its you
Brad says:
You are sensitive, I understand that
Brad says:
your life isnt easy, I understand that
Brad says:
but I could hold your hand....or I could try to push you on
Brad says:
life isnt easy
Brad says:
sometimes you have to man up
Brad says:
rather then feel sorry for yourself
Brad says:
If you take that as an insult then sorry
Phaded says:
you throw up in my face anything, you know me more than anybody
if i say im done, you throw up me having to work at bk, and that last time we argued it really did get to me.
Brad says:
But thats reality
Phaded says:
me not working for you means im not going to make it far, thats how i take that.
Brad says:
no no no
Brad says:
its not about that
Brad says:
its about quitting
Brad says:
no matter where youre working
Brad says:
I have to be so careful of my word choice with you
Brad says:
Because you take things the wrong way
Brad says:
ever since you started working for me, jobs have been slow minus a few
Brad says:
everything has taken way too long to code
Phaded says:
yes, it has
Brad says:
I gave you 50+ chances
Brad says:
most the time I didnt say anything
Brad says:
so dont say I always throw things in your face
Brad says:
I do it when it is needed
Phaded says:
when it comes down to it, you do
Brad says:
sometimes you are going to get criticized
Brad says:
thats life
Brad says:
if you cant take it, you will never be able to work
Brad says:
ever
Brad says:
Try working at a mortgage company and having your boss tell you you are an idiot half the time
Brad says:
making fun of you in front of 20 people
Brad says:
it happen to me all the time
Brad says:
only made me want to work harder
Brad says:
life isnt easy
Phaded says:
so you use that as how to treat me?
Brad says:
quitting when it gets hard, or because I'm "mean" isnt a real excuse
Phaded says:
i don't know, it never was like this before.
Brad says:
haha...I call you an idiot?
Brad says:
dude I used to tell my freaking parents when you first started to work for me that you would go somewhere far
Brad says:
I didnt say, he will go somewhere far cause he works for me
Brad says:
I said he will go someoewhere far cause you were smart
Brad says:
But I cant say that anymore
Brad says:
I havent changed things
Phaded says:
because im leaving
Brad says:
you have
Brad says:
You can think I have
Brad says:
but I havent
Brad says:
You used to care about ss
Phaded says:
yes, alot
Brad says:
nopw you dont give a shit
Brad says:
plain and simple
Phaded says:
until i notice it was all lies
Brad says:
its 100% obvious
Brad says:
all lies....yea ok Bryan
Brad says:
think what you want
Phaded says:
two weeks proved that
Brad says:
blaming....and more blaming
Brad says:
its your moms fault, your brothers fault, your sistsers fault
Phaded says:
i'm not blaming anybody but my self, i let it happen my self.
Brad says:
my fault
Brad says:
earls fault
Brad says:
uncles fault
Brad says:
never your fault?
Brad says:
yea well you can say that all you want
Brad says:
but all I heard you say was blaming other people
Brad says:
Then you accuse me of lieing
Brad says:
when I'm overly honest with you
Brad says:
The only thing that has changed from the beginning to now is that I stopped being fragile with you
Brad says:
I started laying out reality, and that is if you want money you have to work hard for it, and if you want to work for me you have to work hard, no more just taking as long as you want
Brad says:
ever since that you have been pretty inconsistent
Phaded says:
Right, and I can't for some damn reason, I told you that.
Brad says:
You arent ready for responsibility
Brad says:
because you blame things dude
Phaded says:
Im more responsible than you could imagin.
Brad says:
seriously, life is pretty simple
Brad says:
you just do it
Phaded says:
and I am.
Brad says:
? are you kidding me
Brad says:
you know what this is pointless
Brad says:
all you do is point the finger
Brad says:
then deny pointing the finger
Phaded says:
okay, now goto the top of the page and read this again
Brad says:
You have to ket in touch with reality
Phaded says:
actually read this other part too, hold on.
Brad says:
yea thats my point...
Brad says:
you SAY...oh yea I know its my fault
Brad says:
but every other day there is a no excuse
Brad says:
im a liar...so thats why you stopped coding
Brad says:
cant code cause too many people are over..
Brad says:
cant code cause this...cause that
Brad says:
ect ect
Brad says:
same thing for months
Brad says:
rather then dealing with life, and coding when you can
Brad says:
i have a busy life with school, trying to be somewhat social...and trying to help out with my family
Brad says:
but I NEVER mention those things as excuses
Brad says:
I just work the hardest I can
Brad says:
and no im not a posterchild for haed work
Brad says:
but at least I dont make excuses
Phaded says:
http://pastebin.ca/960799
Phaded says:
i don't always point fingers brad, and im not trying to right now, and I far from wanted this to happen, but it already did.
Brad says:
yea I know exactly what I said last time...so I dont get your point
Phaded says:
Yes, that still gets to me.
Brad says:
why do you always try to win....
Phaded says:
Im not.
Phaded says:
its not about winning.
Brad says:
dude im sorry your sensitive I really am
Brad says:
and I know you hold grudges rather then talk it out
Brad says:
But Im not gonna hold your hand
Phaded says:
no, i've talked it out
Brad says:
you want me to just lie to you
Phaded says:
or tried to
Phaded says:
ask john.
Brad says:
You want me to be like...Bryan its ok go at your own pace
Brad says:
your doing great, just try your best
Brad says:
what the hell do you want?
Brad says:
I dont get it
Brad says:
I respect you
Brad says:
im honest to you..
Brad says:
I try my hardest to be fair
Brad says:
yet im ALWAYS not to your standards
Brad says:
somethings always wrong
Brad says:
yet not once have you told me what it was
Brad says:
you are vague about it....so heres your chance
Brad says:
whats the issue?
Brad says:
I throw shit in your face?
Brad says:
thats all you have said...
Phaded says:
lol thats fucked up
Phaded says:
i've told you like... everything
Phaded says:
yet you still don't know.
Brad says:
your right I dont
Brad says:
I live in the real world...not a fake world where everythings perfect
Brad says:
So I dont know...
Phaded says:
OMFG
Phaded says:
I act like i live in a perfect world?
Phaded says:
or am i just taking that wrong
Brad says:
when it comes to online yes...
Brad says:
Because I cant say a single thing that offends you
Brad says:
if I do you blow it out of proportion
Brad says:
hold grudges
Phaded says:
nooo
Brad says:
yet dont say anything
Phaded says:
man you seriously just dont know.. lol
I don't hold grudges, I don't try to 'win' or be 'right'
If i did, you would hated me by now when i tell you your wrong on things.
Some things I will hold, somethings people must. Yet, right now, i was wanting to be civel about it but you have to be right or make me feel all that much worse about it all.
Phaded says:
Its shocking to think i've known you for this long yet i've only woke up now.
Brad says:
whatever man....think what you want
Brad says:
im just a big liar, its all my fault...
Brad says:
if that makes u feel better
Brad says:
then go for it
Phaded says:
did i ever say that
Brad says:
well you say yon "only woke up now"
Phaded says:
damn, you need to either a) learn how to read or B) pratise what you preach.
Brad says:
.....
Brad says:
going to the insults now?
Phaded says:
if thats an insult, im sorry i can't hold your hand.
Brad says:
good one
Brad says:
really mature
Brad says:
mocking me also now?
Phaded says:
alright well, i do hope the very best for you, but I must get to work now.
Brad says:
bryan dont say all that non sense then try to act like you are being professional
Brad says:
and nice about this
Brad says:
you fucked me over
Brad says:
all I have done to you is try to be fair
Brad says:
would have been nice to see the same in return
Brad says:
maybe you should think things through for once...and maybe you'll realize this isnt so much my fault after all
Brad says:
you had oppurtunity, you pissed it way
Phaded says:
i've thought about this for 2 weeks.
Brad says:
alright well for thinkiong about it for two weeks
Brad says:
you sure didnt give me a sure cut answer
Brad says:
I still have no clue what you are trying to say
Brad says:
wheter thats because its msn
Brad says:
or you just arent sure I dont know
Brad says:
but im just 100% confused on why
Phaded says:
then go re-read this, and you may understand, i don't know how else to tell you.
And I am trying to be professional, i respect you even if im angry, upset, mad, what ever you wanna say. The least I can do right now is walk away without hard feelings toward you.
Brad says:
ive read it plenty of times
Brad says:
"Its all been lies"
Brad says:
please do explain
Brad says:
cause looking at everything you said
Brad says:
thats the reason you gave
Brad says:
its all been lies
Brad says:
so I dont think you have been as clear as you thought
Phaded says:
okay let me put it this way
one random day you say equity now not that i thought that was extremely nice of you so please dont get me wrong on that
i left for 2 weeks so i could catch up on bills that way i didn't have to keep asking you, not blaming you on this at all it was my fault i should have been more productive and i wouldnt be put in that position.
Phaded says:
now you told me i could depend on that no matter what, you got upset, it didnt count then
Phaded says:
so
Phaded says:
I justifiy that for the things you've said in the past, and thats my explained/detailed reason.
Brad says:
Yep you're right.....I got angry and stopped sending payments
Brad says:
BUT
Brad says:
what did I do next?
Brad says:
I explained to you why I stopped sending them.....caught up with them
Brad says:
then continued sending them....
Phaded says:
right
Brad says:
does that count for nothing
Brad says:
being 100% upfront with you
Brad says:
I mean come on....
Phaded says:
im not saying that perticular because you did make up for it
Brad says:
you know I do get mad Bryan...
Phaded says:
yes, i do
Phaded says:
and i understand
Brad says:
im not a perfect person
Brad says:
but I try pretty damn hard
Brad says:
to be upfront
Brad says:
and honest to you
Brad says:
not many people give access to their damn bank accounts
Phaded says:
Now, I can code for any joe blow out there, but the differnce with you, and only you, was that i felt i was apart of it. But now its the same thing as joe blow. So whats the point.
Brad says:
to someone they have never seen
Phaded says:
no, and i hope that was more out of respect than anything
Phaded says:
but it was a job for me to do, and i done my damnest to do it, and reguardless what i saw it wasn't my consern, I don't know why you brought that up.
Brad says:
can you please go in vent
Brad says:
cause you just hit on something important
Brad says:
and it makes me thing maybe this isnt down the shitter quite yet
Brad says:
I dont want to win an argument
Brad says:
I want to try and see how things went wrong
Brad says:
even if we cant work it out
Brad says:
after 1 1/2 years
Brad says:
I think its imporant to try
Brad says:
please
Brad says:
seriously this is killing m
Brad says:
me
Brad says:
?
Phaded says:
I feel the same way, but I just think ill find my self here in the same thing again.
I don't want you to change because of my sensitivity or how my life is. Plus i dont want you to regret me being so into everything then have to just upright leave.
Brad says:
well I think its worth a shot to try to discuss?
Brad says:
people can change, things can change
Brad says:
nothings set in stone
Phaded says:
whats vent info
Brad says:
voice5.stealthservers.net
Brad says:
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Phaded says:
h.o
Brad says:
k