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From: ♥amanda♥
Date: Mar 3, 2008 10:38 PM
i know wat i did was a suprise. im sorry if i hurt you really bad for that was not my intention. im know now wat i did was not a mistake. i wasnt ready. idk wat happened. im very sad about all this. i know you think i broke up with u for someone else but thats not true no matter wat anyone says. i think i lost some very good friends after this happened. i all hear his trash from costa and i know deep down yall hate me. i truly value your friendship but...nevermind. im really sorry and i hope one day youll forgive me...
(i kind of got the gist of your messages but please elaborate)
(my response below)
*this is a long msg*
Meh ill explain the messages (if it means anything)
The first giant chunk just talks about how if your mom made you break up with me i would understand and i could forgive you.
The Second giant chunk just explains how i was confused and suprized on how feelings could just up and leave in 3 periods.
The Last chunk says that even though you hurt me and made me have to go threw the thing i was most afraid of i would still be able to forgive you. Says that even though my heart went threw so much pain it could still forgive and love again.
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Now you did hurt me amanda more then you could possibly ever know. *just ask big how i was friday* The thing that hurt me the most was that even though i heard a lot of stuff about you and believe me i heard so much. I never told you because i didn't want you to get sad :/. I defended you and said she wouldn't do it and to my suprize it was thrown in my face. I didn't get told anything after you broke it off with me got a lot of told you sos but that was about it.
Now the friend thing is gonna be a little hard for me so give me a bit of time ill come around. *unlike most my feelings dont just up and leave* I know i seem really happy alot but in my head i cant really be sad about it. I heard so much about it i was ready for it to happen :/ and also i just cheated death again. I really cared for you amanda and my feelings for you only grew just sad it wasn't mutual..........
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Now the costa and other friends things.
*this is straight from there mouths*
In there eyes you have dated nothing but dicks and assholes people who really didn't give a shit about you. Then you get with a guy who truly cares about you who would never hurt you. A genuine nice guy a real one. He is truly afraid to fall for someone for fear of getting hurt but he takes his chance. He gets a no and decides to give it one more day. That day just so happened to be v day. He still gives you the stuff he bought you and carry's the ring with him even after you had said no. He talks to you about everything and you change your answer on him. You tell him you wouldn't hurt him *so on so forth* and he promised not to hurt you. He got a lot of shit for it mostly bad but he ignores it he trusts you and gives you the benefit of the dought on everything even though he saw some of it for himself.
Every one told him he trusted you way to much but he ignored it and continued on. He heard a lot of shit about a two week mark so he worried till it passed and when it did he was happy. Everyone was sure it would last from then on so everyone relaxed. You told everyone you were happy and he was happy to. Then out of know were you just break it off. Just one day after the two week mark. He was so happy to have passed it. In the morning everything was fine and then after lunch you broke it off.
/.. *that part brought up the you left me for someone else part(anthony)*
So Friday he is sad but thinks back on everything that happened he remembers the track meet and how your mom didn't really like you to have a bf. He remembered talking to your mom and how she could have put one and one together.
/.. *you broke up with me because of your mom theory hence me trying to fix it :.r{}**//////////////////////////////////////////////////////
Thats that story :/ so yeah of course me friends gonna be a little pissed just give them time they will be normal again.
Costa is just really upset because he really wanted you to have a nice guy and when you got him you destroyed it :/
He had hoped you had grown up enough to see what you had and to hold onto it.
Big he wont show it but he really is kinda down on it as well because if it wasn't for him we would have never gotten together. He would be the one to calm me down when i over reacted on something. He believed we would last together for a while thats why he tried so hard to get us together. He knew practically everything we ever did together and always saw us happy. So when you broke it off he was pissed. He told me even when he was telling you how to break it off with me he was hoping you wouldn't go threw with it.
Has for me like i said before just give me some time to come around.
So there you have it you now know everything if you read everything.
We dont hate you amanda we can't your to good a friend were just all really like w.t.f at the moment.
I don't believe you can blame me for being the way i am right now all i did was show you love :/
So i hope this long msg cleared up some things and sets your heart at ease on some things.