From: Taylor Barlow (foxchik32@gmail.com)
Sent:Fri 2/15/08 12:57 AM
To: David Garrett (Mixb14@hotmail.com)
So I saw you come to my world tonight, but you logged off pretty fast so I didn't get to talk to you. Brian/Ash/etc said you didn't feel like coming on IRC. Just wondering why, even though I probably know.
From: David Garrett (mixb14@hotmail.com)
Sent:Fri 2/15/08 6:48 AM
To: Taylor Barlow (foxchik32@gmail.com)
Well, at the the time, I was going to bed, and thats exactly what I did, so I didn't see your email till now.
I'm pretty sure staying off IRC is my best option now.. I seriously don't know what you want me to do or want from me, so I figured... give you all the space in the world if you want it. Being off IRC will help with not having so much heart ache, because I have no idea how to fix this... We're pretty much silent towards each other, but you can talk to so many others easily ~~ how am I suppose to feel about that? Didn't seem like talking to you worked out well... so I'll just give you space.
You can decide for yourself if you want to talk to me or not, I always have my aim on, and usually check my emails daily, but I'm not going to plant myself in IRC anymore.
Also, I've been in w59 way before you ever signed on, lol.
From: Taylor Barlow (foxchik32@gmail.com)
Sent:Fri 2/15/08 10:17 AM
To: David Garrett (mixb14@hotmail.com)
Look, I'm sorry idk whats going on with my lately, and I dont want to keep hurting you. But I dont think you should be keeping yourself away from others on IRC. Its not really fair for them. .
And sorry, didn't notice. I've been going to 59 for the lags issue. You were still going 121 when i started going to 59 some. I was just wondering. Thought maybe you were ghosting from me or something. But you just ended up going right to bed when I signed on
From: David Garrett (mixb14@hotmail.com)
Sent:Fri 2/15/08 3:04 PM
To: Taylor Barlow (foxchik32@gmail.com)
I have them all added on msn, about all of them, so I'm there if I want to talk to them. I was talking to Brian and Laura a bit yesterday, and Mark a little before I went to bed.
I promise I won't ghost when I go on rs, but irc... just not now for a while... like I said.. heart ache
From: Taylor Barlow (foxchik32@gmail.com)
Sent:Fri 2/15/08 6:32 PM
To: David Garrett (mixb14@hotmail.com)
alright then..i wont bug you with emails then. email me if you feel like talking or whatever.
------------- Ok, I go on irc because it seemed like she blocked me on rs ----------------
Session Start: Fri Feb 15 18:38:30 2008
Session Ident: Taylor
01[18:38] <Mix> I guess you blocked me...
04[18:39] <04Taylor> what..?
04[18:39] <04Taylor> i'm online >.>
01[18:39] <Mix> you signed on and 2 seconds later you log off
04[18:40] <04Taylor> yeah i world hopped from where i was this morning
01[18:40] <Mix> all right..
04[18:41] <04Taylor> you're the one not logged on >.>
01[18:41] <Mix> I logged off of rs when I opened mirc
01[18:42] <Mix> Taylor.. how do you expect me to feel about this whole situation lately?
01[18:43] <Mix> I tried talking to you about this so many times, and nothing seems to work.
01[18:44] <Mix> seems like all I can do for you is just be away, out of irc.
04[18:44] <04Taylor> i dont see how that helps but w;e
01[18:45] <Mix> What can I do then?
01[18:45] <Mix> I tried asking you what I could do to make things better, you wouldn't answer.
01[18:46] <Mix> well?..
12[18:47] <04Taylor> i dont know david like i said its not you
01[18:48] <Mix> Thats all you tell me, "I don't know, I don't know".. yet its been like this for months
01[18:48] <Mix> and this is going nowhere
01[18:48] <Mix> and you're not helping me
04[18:48] <04Taylor> like i said above. its something going on with me not you >.>
01[18:50] <Mix> you won't tell me whats going on with you... so maybe thats why I'm having a hard time accepting thats the reason
01[18:51] <Mix> Reason I'm trying to keep myself off irc, because I want to know if you want to fix this
01[18:52] <Mix> doesn't really seem like that to me
04[18:52] <04Taylor> yeah well okay messaging you definitly means i dont care the slightest bit>_>
01[18:53] <Mix> still.. trying to talk to you before..
12[18:53] <04Taylor> david how am i supposed to answer how "you" can fix this when somethings obviously wrong with me.
01[18:53] <Mix> then what is wrong with you?
01[18:53] <Mix> Why won't you just tell me?
04[18:54] <04Taylor> i already told you. i dont KNOW whats been going on with me
01[18:54] <Mix> If you know theres something wrong with you, you have to have something to say about it, even if you don't know
04[18:56] <04Taylor> no i dont have to say anything about it because theres nothing to say. what do you think theres even to say?
01[18:57] <Mix> I don't know.. but seriously.. you can't expect me to be happy about how you won't talk to me at all lately, and you keep saying something is wrong even though you say you don't know
01[18:57] <Mix> just shrug it off, and expect things are all great
01[18:58] <Mix> Its on my mind all the time now, and I have no idea what to do now..
01[19:00] <Mix> do you blame me that I feel upset about you?
01[19:01] <Mix> well?
04[19:02] <04Taylor> no i cant blame you but theres no point. i didnt say i blamed you. you're the one getting upset at m
04[19:02] <04Taylor> e
01[19:03] <Mix> You seriously can't think I'd shrug this off easily...
04[19:03] <04Taylor> like i just said. I DONT blame you.
04[19:03] <04Taylor> i'm not saying i do.
01[19:04] <Mix> regardless... things are still the way they are lately
12[19:04] <04Taylor> yeah david i dont see how you think i'm denying any of this
01[19:04] <Mix> and theres nothing I can do about it
01[19:05] <Mix> I believe you that you say theres something wrong, and that you don't blame me.
01[19:05] <Mix> but there has to be something to say about this..
01[19:05] <Mix> iunno, like your mood lately
04[19:05] <04Taylor> like?
01[19:05] <Mix> Are you feeling depressed?
01[19:05] <Mix> anything?
01[19:07] <Mix> Probably would be a good place to start.
01[19:08] <Mix> so.. can you answer that question for me please
01[19:09] <Mix> can you tell me something...
01[19:10] <Mix> please talk to me.. Taylor..
12[19:11] <04Taylor> idk david
01[19:11] <Mix> its simple question, your mood lately
01[19:13] <Mix> please answer...
01[19:14] <Mix> Please.. you wouldn't accept me not telling you whats wrong, you should at least try for me
04[19:15] <04Taylor> you;re not telling me "whats wrong"
01[19:15] <Mix> what do you mean?
04[19:16] <04Taylor> you said i wont accept you telling me whats wrong
04[19:16] <04Taylor> i dont even understand what you've tried to say is wrong with me
01[19:17] <Mix> what?...
04[19:17] <04Taylor> nvm misunderstood your question i guess
01[19:18] <Mix> Just saying, can you try to help me understand whats going on with you?
01[19:18] <Mix> Even if I can't do anything for you > >
01[19:20] <Mix> Even if you consider that moping, at least I know whats going on at least
01[19:22] <Mix> ugh.. how can I make you understand?
01[19:23] <Mix> I want things to feel like they use to be, before school started. I'll do anything for that... but if I can't, I'll like to at least figure out this unknown problem of yours
01[19:23] <Mix> I know you tend to hide things
01[19:24] <Mix> so please talk to me
01[19:25] <Mix> ... please...
01[19:25] <Mix> all you've been doing lately is pushing me away
01[19:25] <Mix> been about 10 mins now since you responded
04[19:26] <04Taylor> !unban satan^
^(she accidently typed that in our chat box, meaning.. she was basically ignoring me, and refusing to talk to me, so yeah... I was mad about that, and just exited irc)
01[19:27] <Mix> ...
01[19:27] <Mix> I'll be on aim if you want to ever talk...
Session Close: Fri Feb 15 19:27:51 2008
Haven't really talked to her since.