(12:11:54 AM) misael: I dunno
(12:11:57 AM) misael: I'll go with you
(12:12:35 AM) me: you always dread things that won't bring you down
(12:12:56 AM) misael: I dunno
(12:13:02 AM) misael: I just feel down for some reason
(12:13:38 AM) me: have you eaten/slept enough?
(12:14:56 AM) misael: yeah
(12:14:58 AM) misael: it's not physical
(12:15:04 AM) misael: I dunno
(12:16:15 AM) me: may fever maybe
(12:17:48 AM) misael: I think it just sucks that out of all the girls I meet, the only one that I could probably give 2 shits about has problems, and it's something that isn't going to get resolved relatively soon if she doesn't want to help herself, and so far my efforts to help her have been good but still minute, and all of this comes crashing down on me right now for some reason, so it's like meeeh
(12:18:36 AM) me: i was thinking about that too
(12:18:48 AM) misael: well not the only girl I could give 2 shits about
(12:18:49 AM) me: but i came to the conclusion that kim would be really different if she had normal self esteem
(12:19:11 AM) me: and she just doesn't have a lot of friends cause of middle school and studying
(12:19:16 AM) misael: just one I could see myself with that isn't a shallow bitch or stupid like 9/10 of all the other girls I could possibly get with
(12:20:07 AM) me: i don't think it's gonna be resolved soon but she seems happy enough right now
(12:20:21 AM) misael: like if I really wanted to
(12:20:23 AM) misael: I could call up like
(12:20:24 AM) misael: 5 girls
(12:20:26 AM) misael: all willing
(12:20:39 AM) misael: but they are all fail in one way or another
(12:21:10 AM) me: i couldn't since i don't put any effort into any girls besides kim and michi, but michi just cause i feel bad about being there so much
(12:21:35 AM) misael: michi is always awesome
(12:21:46 AM) misael: I've known her way before I did kim
(12:22:05 AM) misael: she is like
(12:22:18 AM) misael: happiness incarnate
(12:28:00 AM) misael: I think
(12:28:03 AM) misael: she just needs to go to church
(12:28:21 AM) me: maybe
(12:28:46 AM) me: i don't know, don't talk about that stuff
(12:28:59 AM) me: i don't like talking about my beliefs
(12:29:02 AM) me: cause it's depressing
(12:30:06 AM) me: did kim tell you what she was doing tomorrow?
(12:31:00 AM) misael: no
(12:31:04 AM) misael: or I don't remember
(12:31:22 AM) me: i think she's avoiding us
(12:31:31 AM) me: cause she's afraid we'll stop liking her if we hang out with her more
(12:31:57 AM) me: from what she tells me we're the only people that come over so much
(12:32:16 AM) misael: oh I know that
(12:32:36 AM) me: the first thing?
(12:33:52 AM) misael: oh
(12:33:54 AM) misael: no
(12:33:58 AM) misael: that we are the only that visit so often
(12:34:18 AM) me: she says she'd be alone if it wasn't for us
(12:34:25 AM) me: which is why she does so much for us
(12:35:25 AM) me: and the closer we get/the more she cares the more she feels like just cooking and stuff isn't enough, and she doesn't have the self esteem to realize that we'd be fine if we just got to hang out with her
(12:35:42 AM) me: so, she's starting to freak
(12:35:54 AM) me: even though i've only known her for 2 weeks
(12:39:25 AM) me: sound about right?