(9:08:24 PM) Amy Ochoa: bak
(9:08:46 PM) Matt: hmmm
(9:08:51 PM) Matt: thought you were going to sleep
(9:09:16 PM) Matt: couldnt sleep?
(9:09:20 PM) Amy Ochoa: nope
(9:09:39 PM) Matt: hmmm, i dont want to keep bugging you about this, ill just give you time to think
(9:09:55 PM) Matt: anything you want to get off your chest?
(9:10:08 PM) Amy Ochoa: im a bitch.
(9:10:13 PM) Amy Ochoa: thats pretty much it.
(9:10:25 PM) Matt: your not
(9:10:41 PM) Matt: never a bitch, dont ever call yourself that
(9:10:45 PM) Matt: because its so far from the truth
(9:11:01 PM) Amy Ochoa: no. im a horrible terrible person.
(9:11:25 PM) Matt: why? amy you did nothing wrong
(9:11:29 PM) Matt: you did what you thought was best
(9:11:33 PM) Matt: no one blames you for that
(9:11:38 PM) Matt: we just want you to reconsider
(9:12:28 PM) Matt: does that make sense?
(9:12:53 PM) Amy Ochoa: yeah.
(9:13:04 PM) Matt: good, so please dont be hard on yourself
(9:13:14 PM) Matt: your not a terrible person or anything else
(9:13:22 PM) Matt: we are his best friends and we dont think that and neither does he
(9:13:30 PM) Matt: so why would you think it about yourself
(9:14:11 PM) Amy Ochoa: because, i hurt him.
(9:14:32 PM) Matt: amy either way he will recover
(9:14:35 PM) Matt: dont worry about that
(9:14:39 PM) Amy Ochoa: i know.
(9:14:43 PM) Matt: what im asking you to consider is why you did this
(9:14:58 PM) Amy Ochoa: deep down. i know it was the right thing to do.
(9:15:16 PM) Matt: i dont believe you thought it best because it is so far from the truth, even a blind person could see it
(9:15:26 PM) Amy Ochoa: it hurts now, but in the end were better off.
(9:15:37 PM) Matt: and why is that?
(9:15:48 PM) Matt: because he can spend more time with someone he doesnt care nearly as much about
(9:15:59 PM) Matt: and so you can spend time with someone you dont care as much about
(9:16:25 PM) Amy Ochoa: stop making sense!
(9:16:43 PM) Matt: at least i am making sense
(9:17:32 PM) Amy Ochoa: but he will find someone better. that doesnt have to hide things and can therefore have a relationship with contact.
(9:17:43 PM) Matt: sigh he doesnt want contact
(9:17:45 PM) Matt: he wants you
(9:17:52 PM) Matt: no matter what it is you give him, he loves it
(9:18:17 PM) Matt: even if he can only get to walk with you down the hall for a few seconds or see you smile at him
(9:18:19 PM) Matt: it makes his day
(9:18:24 PM) Matt: and i think
(9:18:29 PM) Matt: deep down, it makes your day alos
(9:18:31 PM) Matt: also*
(9:19:01 PM) Amy Ochoa: :-<
(9:19:40 PM) Matt: am i right?
(9:19:52 PM) Amy Ochoa: maybe.
(9:20:07 PM) Matt: i think i am
(9:20:29 PM) Matt: i think you care so much about him that your only thought was to try and make him happier
(9:20:48 PM) Matt: but i think you failed to take into account, that its you and not anyone else that makes him happy
(9:21:16 PM) Amy Ochoa: how can i make someone happy when im never around?
(9:21:31 PM) Matt: ill let you in on a little secret
(9:21:40 PM) Amy Ochoa: ok..
(9:21:40 PM) Matt: it doesnt matter how much time you spend with us
(9:21:48 PM) Matt: guys just love what we do get from you
(9:21:51 PM) Matt: no matter what it is
(9:21:59 PM) Matt: we treasure the fact knowing that you care
(9:22:17 PM) Matt: even if we get to see you once every 10 years
(9:22:27 PM) Matt: anything the one we care about can offer us, we love it
(9:22:42 PM) Matt: so you see, even if you only saw michael once a week or even once a month
(9:22:52 PM) Matt: just knowing that you care about him makes it worth it
(9:23:24 PM) Amy Ochoa: i do care about him.
(9:23:35 PM) Amy Ochoa: but its going to have to be just as friends
(9:23:49 PM) Matt: thats not what you or he wants
(9:23:56 PM) Matt: and you know it
(9:24:10 PM) Matt: the answer is really simple, and i dont know why you cant see it
(9:24:23 PM) Matt: hes willing to make this work and i think you should to
(9:24:36 PM) Matt: why are you fighting this so hard?
(9:24:43 PM) Matt: is something wrong?
(9:24:53 PM) Amy Ochoa: because its whats best.
(9:25:00 PM) Matt: why is that
(9:25:17 PM) Amy Ochoa: because now he can find someone better than me.
(9:25:29 PM) Matt: thats the basic problem of this
(9:25:36 PM) Matt: to him, there is no one better
(9:26:14 PM) Matt: amy, you can trust me, if there is something else thats causing it, you can tell me
(9:26:20 PM) Matt: because it seems like theres something you arent saying
(9:26:33 PM) Amy Ochoa: theres nothing else.
(9:27:10 PM) Amy Ochoa: like what?
(9:27:22 PM) Matt: well, ive already told you, he wont find anyone better than you
(9:27:29 PM) Matt: no one will seem remotely as good as you
(9:27:42 PM) Matt: so you have to ask yourself, do you feel the same way
(9:27:44 PM) Amy Ochoa: im sure there will be.
(9:27:56 PM) Matt: if you do, then you have to make this work
(9:28:02 PM) Matt: amy, i wouldnt lie to you
(9:28:07 PM) Matt: ive known michael a long time
(9:28:26 PM) Matt: ive never seen anyone that made him feel the way he feels about you
(9:29:39 PM) Amy Ochoa: wanna know a secret?
(9:29:47 PM) Matt: okay
(9:29:58 PM) Amy Ochoa: i really do love him.
(9:30:27 PM) Amy Ochoa: and thats why i have to end things. get in too deep, and its just going to hurt even more later.
(9:30:33 PM) Matt: then dont break what you have, its not what he wants, you already said its not what you want
(9:30:57 PM) Matt: you say you want better for him, but if what he wants is you, how is you breaking up with him going to bring him something better
(9:31:09 PM) Matt: how can you make something better when its already perfect
(9:31:19 PM) Amy Ochoa: its not perfect.
(9:31:26 PM) Matt: he thinks it is
(9:31:30 PM) Matt: he loves it
(9:31:56 PM) Amy Ochoa: :-<
(9:32:15 PM) Matt: if he likes how things are, why try to change them
(9:32:33 PM) Amy Ochoa: because they could be better, but they arent. and they cant get better.
(9:32:46 PM) Matt: your right, they cant get better
(9:32:49 PM) Matt: he didnt think they could
(9:32:53 PM) Matt: because he thinks its perfect
(9:33:00 PM) Matt: so if hes pleased with it, and you love him
(9:33:03 PM) Matt: why end it
(9:34:42 PM) Amy Ochoa: because. im not happy not being able to see him.
(9:35:01 PM) Matt: well then make it work, find ways to see each other more often
(9:35:08 PM) Matt: when people care about each other
(9:35:15 PM) Matt: they dont just give up when things get hard
(9:35:20 PM) Matt: they find a way to make it work
(9:35:23 PM) Amy Ochoa: there are no other ways.
(9:36:18 PM) Matt: amy
(9:36:21 PM) Matt: i dont know what else to say
(9:36:34 PM) Amy Ochoa: i hear what your saying.
(9:36:40 PM) Matt: if you really really think your doing the best thing
(9:36:42 PM) Amy Ochoa: it makes sense.
(9:36:45 PM) Matt: i guess im not going to convince you
(9:36:53 PM) Amy Ochoa: but i really truly believe that its whats best.
(9:37:07 PM) Matt: i guess i have to respect that
(9:37:14 PM) Matt: but i do want to repeat my request
(9:37:20 PM) Matt: please think about some more
(9:37:24 PM) Matt: you really have something special here
(9:37:27 PM) Matt: dont throw it away lately
(9:37:38 PM) Matt: afford this every consideration if you come up with the same answer
(9:37:43 PM) Matt: ill respect that
(9:37:56 PM) Amy Ochoa: ok
(9:37:58 PM) Matt: lightly*
(9:38:25 PM) Matt: i understand if you want to vent or anything else right now
(9:38:29 PM) Matt: im here to listen if you need
(9:38:59 PM) Amy Ochoa: :-<
(9:39:03 PM) Matt: and btw, he wasnt able to express it the way he wanted to, but rj feels the exact same way i do
(9:39:09 PM) Matt: if that means anything to you
(9:39:28 PM) Amy Ochoa: i have no venting to do. except calling myself a bitch, but you wont let me do that.
(9:39:51 PM) Matt: i wont let you do it because its not true
(9:40:08 PM) Amy Ochoa: right now, i think it is.
(9:40:35 PM) Matt: well dont think that
(9:40:46 PM) Amy Ochoa: :-<
(9:40:54 PM) Matt: if any of us thought it, we wouldnt have tried to talk to you about this
(9:41:06 PM) Matt: and if we dont think it, theres no reason to think it about yourself
(9:41:16 PM) Matt: becaue it just isnt true
(9:41:27 PM) Matt: that much is apparent from our conversation
(9:41:39 PM) Matt: we may not agree with your decision
(9:41:46 PM) Matt: but its obvious you did it because you care
(9:41:58 PM) Matt: and because of that, i have nothing but respect for you
(9:43:01 PM) Amy Ochoa: that makes me feel a little better.
(9:43:29 PM) Matt: im glad
(9:43:37 PM) Matt: i dont want you to be down on yourself
(9:43:59 PM) Amy Ochoa: :-<
(9:44:23 PM) Amy Ochoa: i just dont want to lose him completely
(9:44:29 PM) Matt: you wont
(9:44:34 PM) Matt: he cares to much for that
(9:45:04 PM) Matt: he may not be with you, but he will still want to be around you any chance he gets
(9:45:11 PM) Matt: he wont hold a grudge
(9:45:13 PM) Matt: i promise
(9:45:26 PM) Amy Ochoa: ok
(9:45:46 PM) Matt: feel a lil better now?
(9:45:55 PM) Amy Ochoa: yes. :)
(9:46:09 PM) Matt: good. im glad
(9:46:17 PM) Matt: ill give you a chance to think
(9:46:20 PM) Matt: im here if you need me
(9:46:36 PM) Amy Ochoa: okie dok. im talking to my other friend about it.
(9:46:43 PM) Matt: ok
(9:47:40 PM) Amy Ochoa: :) she doesnt even know michael or much of whats going on. but based on what i say, she thinks i should sleep on it. and she thinks there are ways to make it work.
(9:48:12 PM) Matt: see
(9:48:19 PM) Matt: even people who dont know whats going on
(9:48:23 PM) Matt: think you should give this another try
(9:48:47 PM) Amy Ochoa: :-<
(9:48:59 PM) Matt: its that obvious that you had something special
(9:49:01 PM) Matt: dont let it go
(9:49:20 PM) Amy Ochoa: i dont know.
(9:49:31 PM) Matt: well i do
(9:49:33 PM) Matt: and so does rj
(9:49:35 PM) Matt: and even michael
(9:50:08 PM) Amy Ochoa: no. this is how it has to be.
(9:50:26 PM) Matt: why does it "have" to be this way
(9:50:35 PM) Amy Ochoa: because its the best thing.
(9:50:46 PM) Matt: you keep saying its the best thing but i can tell you dont believe it
(9:51:03 PM) Amy Ochoa: i do believe it.
(9:51:09 PM) Amy Ochoa: thats why im sticking by it.
(9:51:46 PM) Matt: why do you think its the best thing
(9:52:06 PM) Matt: what exactly is that you think he wants, that you have already given him
(9:52:34 PM) Matt: havent already given him*
(9:53:16 PM) Amy Ochoa: idk.
(9:53:19 PM) Amy Ochoa: snu snu?
(9:53:21 PM) Amy Ochoa: jk.
(9:53:26 PM) Matt: if he cared that much about the physical aspect, he could have picked any little hoe in somerset
(9:53:30 PM) Matt: but no he chose you
(9:53:31 PM) Matt: for a reason
(9:53:48 PM) Amy Ochoa: no, but really.
(9:54:54 PM) Matt: but really what
(9:55:04 PM) Matt: you believe thats what he really wants, is the physical aspect?
(9:55:09 PM) Amy Ochoa: nonono
(9:55:28 PM) Amy Ochoa: but really i believe its the best thing.
(9:55:43 PM) Matt: you keep saying that but you wont back it up
(9:56:02 PM) Matt: why do you believe its the best thing
(9:56:04 PM) Matt: honestly
(9:56:12 PM) Amy Ochoa: i dont know how to explain it.
(9:56:17 PM) Matt: try it
(9:57:41 PM) Amy Ochoa: its just. we dont see each other. we werent like good good friends before we got together. and a relationship is supposed to develop and ours cant do that.
(9:59:06 PM) Matt: why
(9:59:23 PM) Matt: why do you need to be around each other physically to develop
(9:59:31 PM) Matt: sure its a problem, but not one that is unsolvable
(9:59:43 PM) Amy Ochoa: im already having to sneak getting on the computer to talk to him.
(9:59:51 PM) Matt: and when you find someone special, you dont avoid your problems, you figure out how to make it work
(9:59:58 PM) Matt: what do you mean sneak on the computer
(9:59:58 PM) Amy Ochoa: i use the excuse of having to do hw, but that can only last so long.
(10:00:06 PM) Matt: are your parents against it?
(10:00:21 PM) Amy Ochoa: what do you mean?
(10:00:39 PM) Amy Ochoa: im not even supposed to have a boyfriend, really. especiiallly not one from somerset.
(10:00:50 PM) Amy Ochoa: especially not one that doesnt go to church.
(10:01:36 PM) Matt: your going to let what your parents think ruin this
(10:01:38 PM) Amy Ochoa: if the 'rents found out, it would be homeschool for me.
(10:02:04 PM) Matt: ....
(10:02:26 PM) Amy Ochoa: it doesnt have anything to do with my parents, except that my dad never lets me on the computer just to talk.
(10:02:58 PM) Matt: have you told michael all of this
(10:03:04 PM) Matt: how you feel and why your doind this
(10:03:12 PM) Amy Ochoa: yes
(10:03:55 PM) Matt: well i dont know what else to say, youve found a way around everything ive said
(10:04:06 PM) Matt: at this point all i can do is ask you to reconsider, and hope you make the right choice
(10:04:32 PM) Matt: and because youve done everything the right way, i just have to respect any decision you make
(10:04:46 PM) Amy Ochoa: what do you mean " youve found a way around everything ive said"
(10:04:48 PM) Amy Ochoa: ?
(10:05:03 PM) Matt: no matter what ive told you so far
(10:05:12 PM) Matt: youve found a reason why you have to do this
(10:05:14 PM) Amy Ochoa: and "and because youve done everything the right way"
(10:05:51 PM) Matt: well, you talked to him, you told him how you feel, you gave this a lot of thought, whether your right or not in your decision you are doing this for the right reasons
(10:06:02 PM) Matt: because you care
(10:06:19 PM) Matt: and if all of that means that you feel you have to end it, then i guess thats it
(10:06:39 PM) Matt: we really cant ask for anymore than do your best not to hurt him and take everything into consideration
(10:06:58 PM) Amy Ochoa: ive already hurt him.
(10:07:04 PM) Matt: if you have done that, then we just have to take your decision the way it is
(10:07:34 PM) Matt: and because you have done all of that
(10:07:39 PM) Matt: none of us think any less of you
(10:07:57 PM) Matt: i know this isnt easy for you, so at least let that worry be calmed if it exists
(10:08:06 PM) Matt: we dont hate you and we wont think any less of you
(10:08:23 PM) Amy Ochoa: thanks. :)
(10:08:48 PM) Amy Ochoa: want to know something funny my friend said?
(10:08:54 PM) Matt: ??
(10:09:01 PM) Amy Ochoa: you have an army of people willing to go down there and ship your dad off to mexico
(10:09:21 PM) Amy Ochoa: she said that in reference to my dad not letting me on the puter
(10:09:44 PM) Matt: lol
(10:10:50 PM) Amy Ochoa: but anyways.
(10:11:12 PM) Amy Ochoa: i know i made the best decision. it just might take a while to get over it.
(10:11:29 PM) Matt: sigh you seem determined so i guess ive done all i can do
(10:11:40 PM) Matt: ive said it before but ill say it one more time
(10:11:46 PM) Matt: just sleep on it
(10:11:48 PM) Amy Ochoa: youve made some very good points
(10:11:54 PM) Matt: other than that, lets not talk about it unless you want to
(10:12:01 PM) Amy Ochoa: okay.
(10:12:11 PM) Amy Ochoa: *BIG SIGH*