[00:09] <Mix> It just seems so long ago they I have really felt so much love from you. Even though you have made me cards... the message you wrote in the pastebin.. why does it feel like I still have to second guess that?
[00:10] <Tay> in the pastebin?
[00:10] <Mix> You remember what you wrote me.. I told you about my dream..
[00:12] <Mix> Why do I have to feel that way?.. Should I be feeling that way?..
[00:13] <Tay|Shower|HandsOFF|XD> i really cant remember david >.<
~~blah blah blah, I posted what Taylor said in the other pastebin ~~
[00:15] <Tay|Shower|HandsOFF|XD> what about it?
[00:16] <Tay|Shower|HandsOFF|XD> soirry i really gotta get in the shower right now >.< keep writing
[00:21] <Mix> You're a huge part of my life... I just.. never been able to function very well if things weren't going right between us because I never felt anywhere near close to anyone else in my life.
[00:16] <Mix> After reading that, I thought I should never have to second guess, I thought that for the longest time. but.. it feels like it was just the same as before.. cold.. emotionless.. dead... I had my hopes up for my birthday..
[00:17] <Mix> That was the big difference between this year and last year.
[00:24] <Mix> When you started going out with Zack, Brandon could tell you.. I was a train wreck.. I remember going to Allen's birthday party, and Allen just mentioned your name to me, I always always try to keep my composure in front of people, I rarely break down in front of people.. I definitely almost did that day, even though there was like 10 people there.
[00:26] <Mix> The jist of that story was.. I just don't know what I'd do if you were really gone.. even though we never met and can't truly be together... I'd understand if you moved on and started dating, but iunno how I would be able to do anything.
[00:27] <Mix> I guess I just rely on your friendship to help me through life.. I may not have the pleasure of having rl friends, but if I have you.. I think I would be fine.
[00:28] <Mix> iunno what else to say...
[00:51] <Mix> *sigh*.. are you just going to ignore what I said?
[00:51] <04Taylor> no, i just dont know what to say really
[00:52] <Mix> I'm starting to get fustrated now since I don't know what I should do or what you want me to do...
[00:52] <Mix> you have nothing to say, all there is is silence
[00:53] <Mix> what do you want me to do?
[00:53] <04Taylor> i just dont know what to say to make you feel better anymore, it doesnt seem to help
[00:54] <Mix> what do you mean?
[00:56] <04Taylor> idk you still always get upset
[00:57] <Mix> Don't you understand.. the relationship I was so exicited about for the future... seems to be crumbling apart right in front of me.. I don't know what to say to get you to talk to me anymore and yes.. I'm going to be upset about that.
[00:59] <Mix> I know I've made serious mistakes.. which made things so much worse
[00:59] <Mix> but all I want is things to be back to normal between us...
[01:00] <Mix> I just don't know what you want.. you never say anything
[01:01] <Mix> thats all I want right now.. is your opinion..
[01:02] <04Taylor> my opinion on?
[01:02] <Mix> I typed so much, you hardly said a thing..
[01:04] <04Taylor> i told you i had to leave and get in the shower :X
[01:05] <Mix> *sigh* just nevermind..
[01:07] <04Taylor> idk david. i guess i'm just really stressed and rattled tonight >.< i cant think and all my muscles are sore. can we talk tomorrow? or you email me and i'll reply after pratice? (we got early prac tomorrow)
[01:07] <Mix> yeah.. I need to go to bed..
[01:08] <04Taylor> night david, talk to you tomorrow
Session Close: Fri Jan 25 07:20:27 2008