Guys, I have a dilemma in my hands and I need some advice.
The question has come up on and off within my family and it has come up yet again. But this question is coming up more and more.
"Are you going to Bangladesh?"
For those of you who don't know, I don't have any papers. In regards, meaning I have no Green Card. So With that said, I can't get work nor can I get fianancial aid for college. Maybe, I can't even go take the SAT (to be confirmed?).
So with that said, my parents are asking me if I want to go to Bangladesh, what would be my decision, etc. Right now, my answer has been a solid NO. I refuse to go to Bangladesh. I just don't feel I can be sucessful in any manner if I go to Bangladesh. I will FAIL LIFE if I go to Bangladesh.
However, my father has money and property all in Bangladesh which he wants to pass down to me. For that, I need to go to Bangladesh. Also, neither my mother nor my father have completed Hajj and thus, they want to go as soon as possible (as early as next Hajj season).
So the question remains, should I go?
RIght now, the problem is, we can't stay because its just not financially possible. The amount of money mom and dad pay is just not enough for rent. Now the question is, lets say I can sustain the rent and what not and that I make enough income for my parents to be able to stay here, then yes, I have that option.
But what if I can't? Then, do I go to Bangladesh? What is the direction I need to take now?
I have no idea. I need to make a decision and grow up quick. Because the sooner I refuse to make a decision or delay it, the quicker time passes and soon enough, I will have to make a decision.
By the end of December, the infrastructure for my company is soon to start. I will have bought a domain and some hosting, get something running. I will be working jointly with Nazmul in order to make some money. Now as to making a profit, that is left to be said. But, I am making the incentive so far and it might get me somewhere.
Web developers tend to make a good 1000 to 2000 a month. If I can manage that, then I should be safe.
Now lets say that doesn't work. Then what? What will be next? Bangladesh? Saudi Arabia (I have an Uncle there)? Staying in America by myself?
I need some serious responses. No jokes please. Seriously, this is on the line for what the hell is going to happen to my life.
So please, guide me through this guys. And pray.
Just pray.
~Shams