[22:26] Twig: Laying with you late into the night talking about the most random things on a level only we can understand. Connecting about something and just knowing what we both mean. Sleeping comfortably and fitting like nobody else does. Being dorky and rolling our eyes at each other.
[22:26] Twig: We can still have some of those things
[22:27] xone009: Those are all not going anywhere.
[22:27] xone009: I don't think there's anything that you have lost.
[22:27] Twig: It still won't be the same.
[22:27] xone009: Besides the things that have changed.
[22:27] xone009: But you see?
[22:27] xone009: I have lost.
[22:27] xone009: There are tangible things that I have lost.
[22:28] Twig: and those tangibles [read: sexuality] are near-meaningless to me. The meaning therein was for your feelings, for knowing how you felt and expressing
[22:28] Twig: not for me
[22:28] xone009: No
[22:28] Twig: then what tangibly?
[22:29] xone009: Not just sexually. You don't even know.
[22:29] Twig: no, I don't
[22:29] xone009: And that's why this sucks.
[22:29] xone009: There are parts of people that they give to eachother that they give back when they leave eachother
[22:29] xone009: And you don't even know what you have of me
[22:29] xone009: And I am now realizing that you gave me nothing.
[22:29] Twig: Should I look so I can give it back?
[22:30] xone009: Keep it. I don't want it.
[22:30] Twig: harsh.
[22:30] xone009: I'm not trying to devalue our entire relationship, but some of this does change it a bit.
[22:30] xone009: I'm not saying it wasn't amazing, because it was
[22:30] xone009: But all of the amazing things will remain.
[22:30] Twig: that's in the how, though
[22:31] xone009: Will survive.
[22:31] xone009: The things I've lost, and the things I thought I had of you...
[22:31] Twig: you did have them
[22:31] xone009: Then why can't you tell me what you have lost?
[22:32] Twig: becausse I didn't lose them, you did.
[22:32] Twig: You had them before
[22:32] xone009: I'm talking about 2 different exchanges.
[22:32] xone009: You know what, nevermind.
[22:32] xone009: I can't expect you to understand.
[22:32] xone009: That's the entire reason we will never work.
[22:32] Twig: I'm sorry
[22:33] xone009: There are certain blind faiths you throw at another person
[22:33] xone009: There are certain things involved with "falling" in love that are dangerous and risky
[22:33] xone009: It's a trust issue.
[22:33] xone009: A confidence. A dependancey, which is a sin in your world.
[22:33] Twig: No!
[22:34] Twig: There's a huge difference
[22:34] xone009: ?
[22:34] Twig: Trust and dependancy are COMPLETELY different
[22:35] xone009: I didn't say they were the same.
[22:35] Twig: then where did the connection come in?
[22:35] xone009: You depend on a person to a certain level, and you trust them to not let you down.
[22:36] Twig: that's not a dependancy
[22:36] xone009: Are you sure?
[22:36] Twig: technically it is
[22:36] Twig: but not the dependancy I mean
[22:36] xone009: Well, whichever.
[22:36] Twig: a dependancy is when you are so much invested in them you are no longer your own self
[22:37] Twig: can't just be yourself without them, a need for them
[22:37] xone009: Yes, which you think is asin.
[22:37] Twig: not sin, but not good
[22:37] xone009: Two people love and create a third in that love. eventually They become one. There is always their individual self, but they are dependant on eachother.
[22:38] Twig: We didn't have a child!
[22:38] Twig: We had a relationship
[22:38] xone009: It's a metaphor.
[22:38] Twig: Not a good one!
[22:38] xone009: One you disagree with.
[22:39] xone009: Because you did not depend on me like I depended on you.
[22:39] xone009: Which isn't your fault, which isn't something you should be damned for.
[22:39] xone009: This is not me blaming you, this is me showing you the problem.
[22:39] xone009: Why I'm so upset.
[22:39] xone009: Why I wish you would've been more careful.