<div class="blogheader">Thursday August 19, 2004</div>
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<P>Note: This post is directed at someone, and is being posted here to maintain anominity. Thanks.</P>
<P>The point was not that you left her name on there, the point was the post in its entirety. Things like that do NOT need to be, and should not ever be put on xanga. If you have a problem, go and talk to her about it, don't just try to sweep in more drama. This is not the first time you have done this, and trust me: you are not making more friends or fixing anything by doing it. What are you thinking? What could possibly be the logic behind what you're doing? I highly doubt whether or not your intentions were to fix anything t all or to even make a point. Your intentions were to flame her online, and hurt her feelings! Stop it! Stop making posts when you are angry, stop making posts about people you are angry at! You yourself complain about how hypocritical some Christians are; how are you acting by posting something like that?</P>
<P>Goodness.</P><div class="smalltext">Posted 8/19/2004 at 3:51 PM</div></td></tr></table><hr size=1 noshade><div class="blogheader">2 Comments</div>
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<div class="ctextfooterwrap"><div class="ctext"><P>daniel my dearest, </P>
<P>remember that discussion we had about NOT reading things that make us upset? Or posting things that prove how much they upset us? Yeah.. well then. </P>
<P>Anyways, enough about that.. I haven't talked to you in a week and a half and I know you miss me dearly, SO email me. I'm at my dads for a couple days so I'll be able to check email. not sure if they have AOL or not I'll check!! Jessica and I planned the cali trip...it's so official, and we're kidnapping you and bringing u home with us, so beware!!</P>
<P><3 Chelle.</P></div><div class="cfooter">Posted 8/19/2004 at 7:37 PM by <a href="http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=xDeadEndx">xDeadEndx</a></div></div><div class="ctextfooterwrap"><div class="ctext">wow, got to love the drama that life brings! God Bless Ya!<BR><BR>Sammy</div><div class="cfooter">Posted 8/19/2004 at 7:55 PM by <a href="http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=SLaMMin_SaMsteRs">SLaMMin_SaMsteRs</a></div></div></td></tr></table><hr size=1 noshade>
<div class="blogheader">Wednesday August 18, 2004</div>
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Who am I to fathom the workings of God? So many things seem like
they matter, so many things hurt and make me sad, but to what
means? What is it going to matter in the longest run? I
look towards heaven, and know that I am safe. Safe from harm,
from all the hurts of this world. I can rely on my God, who is
always there for me, always loving me unconditionally. This world
will leave you for dead. Sometimes the pain will be so intense
that the only thing outside out your tears is the sound of your own
breathing. Your heart reaches out for the friends you thought you
had, and touch nothing but darkness. But the instant you reach
out for God... Joy, Happiness, Love, Hope, Healing... being
Complete. Exactly what you needed all along.<br>
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I am just a dude. Nothing to the worlds standards. Nothing
special, nothing unique. Just me, nothing worth noticing.
But to God, everything. the most beautiful creation, the most
incredible person ever. Loved beyond comprehension, cared for
more than a newborn. Worth giving up His own son to die, just so
that he could have me. The same God that created the universe in
its infinity, created me with the same amount of love and
potential. <br>
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He created me Me. Exactly what I needed to be to succeed in this
life. But it's not succeeding to the worlds standards, but to
God's. Succeeding to the worlds will only leave me empty and
alone, without hope or a purpose. Nothingness and Pain.
Trust me, I've been there. And I've fallen. To wake up
alone and friendless is the most horrible feeling in the world.
Without hope, without a meaning. It sucks. Left with
nothing, I turned to God.<br>
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Success, Love, Hope, Meaning, Life. Finally Living.<br>
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Most of my thinking is done at night. After midnight, my mind
starts to go into its really deep stages of pondering. I love how
complex God created the human mind. Christ Rocks. I may not
be healed yet, but I am almost there :D God is AWESOME. I
love you, Lord.<br><div class="smalltext">Posted 8/18/2004 at 4:09 AM</div>