` Her pain
/ different word for pain /
` Tears
` Innocence
` How did she lose it ?
` Wisdom
` Blindness
` My realization
` Aeons thinking & me discerning my inner-self(although it was known from
the begining, and due to my huge underestimation I thought it might work)
I was wrong from the begining.
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` My desire for her salvation
` My desire for her to feel good
` Even if it costs with my ceassation in her life
` I must speak with her about it
` " Even if it costs with my ceassation in her life", "and now, my mind asks me ' Are you insane ?' 'probably so' "
` My punishments
` Insomnia
` Full social detachment
` Apathy
` Higher paranoia
` Lead (almost) to being schizoid
` Her love ?
` Was there any love ?
` She was blind by the fog of heaven / find more than one synonym for 'fog of heaven' /
` Her trust
` Was there any trust ?
` Yes, there was.
` My non-feelings
` How iditioc I was.
` That time, how things ran, how I demolished myself.
` Creation of my punishments
` Inside the world which was heaven - transformed into hell