Unfortunately the time has come for me to resign my post in Nocturnal Fear.
I want to say that I am eternally grateful for the time I have spent here. I joined way back in May 2003 along with Expertman and have been in NF entirely since then. I have made many friends and have had uncountable great experiences. I am honored at being given the title of Squad Commander and I hope I exercised that position to everyone's satisfaction.
My reasons for leaving are not the same as others who have left recently. No one person has done anything to offend me, nor am I upset about anything that has happened. Most specifically, to Trancillion I ask you to understand that this isn't your fault at all. Nor am I in any way upset about not being given a promotion.
NF has been in limbo for some time, many months in fact, since last summer. I have patiently waited for things to improve, done what little I could to contribute, but in the end it looks as though it will not happen. At the core, NF was started by Telios, Tatanga, Cleve, and Highrisk, and those people created and embodied the NF spirit. I have untold amounts of respect for them all. However, with three of the four gone and the fourth unwilling to lead, NF has become a shadow of what it once was. In my view, NF does not exist anymore, so there just isn't any reason to stay. Again, this isn't any one person's fault. However, until at least two of our absent officers comes back, and comes back to stay, in order to get things back to the way they used to be, NF is simply not here anymore.
I realize that you are all on a mission to bring back NF, but for me personally, I have waited too long, and this plan will take too long, and I just do not wish to be a part of it. You had a meeting, spirit is high, but I am convinced to the core that reality will come and present a very different picture about the future of NF.
I am eternally in debt for the assistance I have receieved from NF members both present and past. It pains me that I must carry this debt unpaid to another organization. I have, however, made some contributions to NF and for this, I hope I am not being too forward in requesting that I still be allowed access to the forums to check up on NF from time to time.
Once again, to Trancillion, please understand that I do not think you did anything wrong. It is unfortunate that this all happens as soon as you became president, but it is a coincedent. This could have happened just as well when Tatanga was still president.
I wish to especially thank Telios for recruiting me in the first place and being a powerful role model that I could always look up to. To the other members of NF present and past, I send a warm thanks and a sad farewell. I do wish to add that I was very upset at seeing what happened after Metapowah left and the talk about him. I hope that you will all have the maturity to refrain from such comments about me, although I realize I cannot control your opinions on this. However, seeing that some of you can talk this way about a person making a rational decision makes me just that more sure in what I do now.
Oh and FYI, Juli has promised me so many cookies that I must follow her wherever she goes...