I had given some thought to my life and realized that I'm an egoistical and narcissistic person, which is only mildly intellectual and had been feigning intelligence on account of considering that knowing certain things that other people don't know makes you suddenly highly intellectual, which to my realization is obviously not true and is only means to makes someone seem eclectic, which has nothing to do with intelligence. I berate and despise not the stupid, but just those who don't know the things I know, how pretentious and obnoxious, and the only thing I take interest in is when someone sees past beyond that and tries to outplay me at my own game. I'm trying to be normal and simple for quite some time, so far seems to work, sort of. Hence, what possibly interesting outcome you would consider to get from someone as pretty much moderately intelligent as myself. That said, this conversation is getting more and more formal because of two things, one of it being the state of the timezone and therefore being somewhat forced to write as a coherent and summarized event which you wish to discuss, a letter of some sorts if you wish, and two - you're involving yourself, as you should be, due to your personal career path, in politics, religion, philosophy, topics that I have most likely read on about once or twice, never actually indulging myself beyond scratching the general idea - which renders our conversation topics as narrow as the labyrinth of Crete. As for our relationship, considering the past conversations, I'm not really sure what we are at this point. You must also probably think that I have an answer to everything you might ask about those topics I've pointed out, philosophy, history etc. Well you're correct, I do have an answer for every single one of those topics on a lot of sub topics, for the first two sentences. The rest will most likely be compiled out of a quick wiki survey which I'll no doubtably read because I feel insecure about myself when someone asks me something expecting me to know and I destroy the benefit of the doubt. I've also been lying about having knowledge of anatomy and color and light in the period of 17 to 19 of my life, I have wasted two years of my life doing nothing but reassuring myself that I'm working enough,, while the reality was that I had been working only maybe 5 or 10%. My whole life I've been doing that same thing, wasting my life away, and when I thought I was doing a change, it was basically the same thing, such an irony, it's almost pathetic. It is only last year that I had realized the requirements and sacrifices of what this line of work truly requests, and only in december of last year I had finally buckled down to a concise, consistent, systematic and productive schedule. That has been and will most likely be the rest of my life for the next 5 or 10 years. There's really nothing else I could or might tell you, there's literally nothing of interest I could maintain a conversation with or even simple banther, and considering all of the above from previous statements, there is nothing you can gain out of talking to me, unless you want to talk about something drawing or painting, something which I can't lie about, the only thing i can't fabricate, which is pretty much unlikely so because other than that, I have nothing else to tell you