You probably don't want to give a reason to me. As much as I want one
it still wont change the fact I am at fault. As much as I want to
unload right here and put you on a guilt trip... sharing my pain here
would be pointless, I don't expect you to understand my life or my
pain.
All I want to say is this then, I wont bother you or stand in your
way anymore. I love you, I will always love you, I will always be here
for you, I will always wait for you.
This is not the movies Chelsea, this is real life. The label
boyfriend/girlfriend never meant anything to me. I am not into labels,
I am into facts. True love never fades. I love you enough to let you
go to do what you want, you could of cheated on me, I would of still
been here for you. I don't think you understand that kind of love but
that's ok.
Perhaps everything I ever said to you meant nothing to you, perhaps
everything you ever said to me meant nothing to you but i believed
those words. Your the last human I put any trust or faith in. True
love only has to be one sided. I'll wait the rest of my life if i have
to. I however am not one to go where im not wanted like others. I
realize I am not good enough for you so I have no right to chase you
when you don't want me or care about me. I will however be right here
if you ever need me. One phone call and I will drop anything to be
there as fast as I can. I would die for you with no hesitation. I gave
what was left of my battle worn heart to you, to keep, to ignore, to
stomp on. It will always be yours.
I don't even know if you will read this, I've obviously done something
terrible to you and even though I'm sure it won't make it right, all I
can do is ask you to forgive me. If you do care at all please at least
let me know you read this.
When I first told you I loved you, I told you not to say it back
intentionally, because I wanted you to remember for the rest of your
life, that I was the one who loved you with no strings attached and no
requirement for you to love me back.
I love you Chelsea
~Lance